I have endless energy, or so I feel when I look around and become aware of the speed at which I do things. It is even more obvious when I feel this eternal rush to do more and more and I perceive everyone else as very slow.
I always thought this energy to be a blessing. However, yesterday, as I was moving around like a nervous butterfly among friends, my kitchen and the patio, I suddenly realised that is not so wonderful after all.
I was hosting a BBQ at home. This is an event planned to enjoy the company of my friends but I was incapable of slowing down and mingle. I simply kept on moving and moving, right and left. I felt the urge to make sure that everything everywhere was alright, and indeed it was. I also know that it would still have been fine without me constantly checking.
Only once the party was almost over and very few people were left, I relaxed and enjoyed.
I want to learn to rest, to slow down, to enjoy doing absolutely nothing. I want to learn to stop and smell the roses. I simply do not know how. Can somebody help?
I always thought this energy to be a blessing. However, yesterday, as I was moving around like a nervous butterfly among friends, my kitchen and the patio, I suddenly realised that is not so wonderful after all.
I was hosting a BBQ at home. This is an event planned to enjoy the company of my friends but I was incapable of slowing down and mingle. I simply kept on moving and moving, right and left. I felt the urge to make sure that everything everywhere was alright, and indeed it was. I also know that it would still have been fine without me constantly checking.
Only once the party was almost over and very few people were left, I relaxed and enjoyed.
I want to learn to rest, to slow down, to enjoy doing absolutely nothing. I want to learn to stop and smell the roses. I simply do not know how. Can somebody help?
